What I Have So Far

What I have so far is a desire, a need, an inkling, and a drive.

A desire to break free of the routine I have and live a very simple, nature-filled life on the road,

A need to cultivate a sense of self-reliance, but also the ability to trust and rely on others,

An inkling of what I want the coming year to look like,

And a drive to do it all even though it makes no sense in the traditional wisdom of what to do when you’re middle aged.

A good start, right?

I also have a 2002 VW campervan, about a quarter of a year’s salary saved, frequent flyer miles, a house in Costa Rica to crash in (thanks big brother), friends and family on the West and East Coast, the Southwest, and in Colorado, a man and a family supporting me, and confidence to be alone and on the road, or in the wilderness.

What I haven’t figured out: health insurance; what to do with my dog when I fly places, including to Costa for months; how to calm my anxiety; my actual agenda that flows with the seasons; how to afford this adventure on the savings I have; what I’ll do when I come home; what to do with my house December to June…(*See anxieties above).

You know what I really want to do? Hike the Hayduke Trail, the Colorado Trail, sit in the desert and feel the heat, jump in streams, climb every moderate route I can find, float in Mama Ocean, sit and listen to waves and journal, read…see my family, reconnect with friends, find random work doing things I want to do but never can because I work full time.

Let me know if you want to meet up next year. Want to foster a cute little elderly dog? Let me know. Any advice? Pass it on, please…Words of wisdom welcomed!

What I have so far is a huge step forward for me:

Leaping into the unknown,

following my inner child (who never gave up on her belief that everything works out one way or another even though she was buried under a lot of shit all these years).

I’m doing ok…