“We all come from the goddess and to her we shall return”
It’s with drum beats long forgotten that I step into this journey.
Turning away from Other and into Self because I don’t have a choice anymore. I’m not going to make it without connecting to Spirit, to Self
Right Now.
Be Here Now…pulled off the shelf. It might as well have been covered in layers of dust from two decades of being forgotten. Metaphorical dust. Dust of a life lived and a purpose forgotten.
But,
I’m reminded on page one to return to
The Heart Cave
…Start again.
Become that trusting…open…surrendered Being
It makes me ache for that part of me that used to dance in delight
In moonlit dreams
So sure that the fire and passion in me would never die out.
I feel so old,
Like my purpose is gone, or was never clear.
I feel beat down.
Low.
So I’m stepping back into the Heart Cave. I’m opening and surrendering, and will learn to trust. How scary. Life taught me not to trust, and now to go on living I have to. There’s something sick and twisted in that. But there it is.
Ram Dass whispers in my ear:
Unless you START AGAIN,
Become that trusting
open surrendered being
The energy can’t come in
The simple, profound beauty, truth of it all, crushes me the same way it did 25 years ago.
So I start again, from the beginning.
This time with the wisdom and pain of life coming along for the ride. At least for now.
